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Yes I know I haven't posted in forever. I've been really busy with school, its really hard and takes a lot of my time, but I like it. I also just got a job at AMC movie theaters at the Waterfront here in Pittsburgh, so now I'll finally have some money. Its also great because I'll be working with my best friend and constant companion Mindy!!!! :D Tomorrow is my last day of training so I'll actually be doing stuff lol I will start out as an usher and concession person then I'll be trained in other areas. In school related news, I'm doing ok, the Photoshop class is boring, but the stuff is also kind of cool cause it can help with a lot of things in other classes. In my drawing class, I'm doing bad, I'm getting a c, and the teacher probably thinks I'm retarded. I just have a lot of trouble drawing real things and making things look realistic. I know its good to be able to do that because it will help with my comics, and I am trying, I'm just not that great. We had to draw a piece of draped fabric, and I thought mine looked great, but my teacher had all the criticisms. I drew it as best I can, but my old teacher at the Art Institute, the only teacher I liked, said you sometimes have to exaggerate curves and folds to make it look more real, and always make the piece your own, but I guess this new teacher is different. I am going to keep trying my hardest and see what happens. I need to keep in mind that all kinds of artist have trouble with different things, I'm no different. Also, I HAD AMAZING SEX TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think I posted about the guy I first had sex with, well he contacted me, and we had sex today!!!! It was amazing, the best I've had. I sucked his dick, which is amazing 8 long thick inches of amazingness, and I licked his ass, which is also amazing, it tastes so good. Then he fucked me for a little bit, which hurt a little cause he's so big and I haven't been fucked since Christmas. Then I fucked him which was fun, but I wanted to do doggy style and he didn't, I had trouble finding a comfortable position where I could fuck him good. Then I fingered him and made out with him till he came, then he did the same to me. Next we cuddled for a couple hours, then I sucked him and rimmed him again, and he was moaning cause I apparently give "bomb" head which really made me happy. I rode his monster and cam in his mouth and he jerked off while sucking me but my butt was sore so I went soft and he couldn't cum, he said it was ok though so I hope he's not mad. He's really different from when I was 16, I like him way more now though. He's not in a relationship, and I"m a bit worried he'll ask if I want to be in one with him because I have this long distance thing going on with another man. His name is Otto and we met online, its funny cause we met looking for sex and he wanted someone dominate and I wanted someone dominate too, but I said I'd try dominating him and its just blossomed from there. I tell him when to cum, and stuff like that its a lot of fun, and we talk about other stuff too. He really likes me and I really like him, and now that I'm working I'm gonna try and visit him, he lives in a suburb near Detroit, its a really high class gated community. He's only 26, but he already owns a business and is getting his doctorate in something, I can't remember what. I'm just worried about what I should do. I REALLY like him, and I know he has feelings for me, I just don't want something or someone to come along a ruin it. Me and him aren't boyfriends or anything but I wouldn't mind it, I think we'll wait till we meet first though. Anyway, that's my life now. Its going pretty great, I'm very happy. Oh well my dad hurt his shoulder and may need surgery we aren't sure, he's not worried though so I'm ok lol its not that bad.

MY PORN IS GONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So my netbook got some horrible virus/spyware/some-evil-computer-rapist thing and I can't even get it to boot, not even to put it in safe mode to fix it. I'm not super upset, my financial aid check will be here soon so I can buy a brand new normal laptop. The thing I am upset about is the story I had started writing, true I was only on chapter 1 but still its gonna be annoying to rewrite that, it was really thought out and its kinda hurtful that I have to redo it, and yes my porn is gone. I'm not really heartbroken over that either. Its just annoying, the dick shots I'm not miffed about but the ass shots (over 3000 pictures) are all gone, most of them I can get back but a lot were from random blogs whose names I can't remember so its gonna be annoying to search for them, which I'm probably not gonna do lol. I know I have some porn lover friends so if anyone has any hot ass shots you wanna send me let me know, I'd love to see them. Oh yeah the other bad thing about this is that now I have to share the family laptop with everyone which is super annoying. My spends six hours trying to figure out her email, which she should just give up one because she doesn't understand anything. My older brother uses it to do his writing too which I think he should stop because he's not even trying to get a career. He's looking for jobs at a bank, why would he go to school for film making and take a job at a bank, he had a chance for an intern and he turned it down. Wtf? Its going to be very annoying waiting the three weeks to get my check but hopefully I can make it.

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Not Masturbating
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So starting this past Monday (the 31st) I stopped jerking off. I'm not going to jerk off till next Monday (the 7th). Its going good so far, it only gets hard to hold off at night because that's when I normally jerk off. But Monday is gonna be awesome because my load is gonna be huge!!!!!! If I ever find a guy, a permanent guy, I would love to try cum control stuff with him, maybe buy a chastity device or something.

Stuf to do/stop/buy for this year

Stuff To Do

  • Eat healthier
  • Go walking everyday OR use treadmill
  • Do some form of exercise such as sit up/squats/some random exercise
  • Get up everyday at 10:00
  • Go to bed at 12:00 am
  • Work on school work at least 2 hours every other day
  • Draw at least one thing every day
  • Blog everyday
  • Find a fucking job, this is getting ridiculous
Sexual Stuff
  • Lick more ass lol
  • Get fisted
  • Find a guy and have a dominant/submissive relationship
  • buy more sex toys, especially a butt plug, I've been wanting one
  • Have a threesome

Stuff To Stop

  • Stop eating so much, eat only when hungry, not when bored
  • Stop being lazy lmao!!!
  • Stop worrying about guys, they are stupid

Stuff To Buy

  • New Macbook Air
  • Digital camera
  • Electronic drawing tablet
  • Tons of books!!!!!!!
  • Nipple piercings ;)

I WANNA HAVE SEX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I used to hardly have sex ever so I never missed it, but since I had that regular thing with Mark (which is now over I guess, he hasn't messaged me in weeks,  and I think I ruined it since I told him I liked him) and now I want more sex. I try doing Craigslist but I get nervous and end up not meeting the guys I've talked with so now everyone on there probably hates me. I wanna suck a big dick, and lick a super fine ass, and be fucked. :( But I don't want it to be a one time thing, I'd like a friends with benefits thing, or even better an actual relationship but I have stopped looking for that. Oh well, I'm just let whatever happens happen and hope for the best. A new friend Terry helped me do my tarot cards and they said I will find love but I gotta learn some things first.

Craving A Spanking
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So, lately, I've been craving a spanking. I like spanking, but never before have I been dying for one, I want some sexy fuzzy man to bend me over his knee and spank my tight ass lol. It'd be hot if he was clothed too, but if I was totally naked. I'd call him sir and he'd call me boy and make my ass red all over. I'm super horny tonight lol I thought I'd post a random blurb.

JUST AN UPDATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I haven't really updated much, little blurbs here and there but no big blogs really. I thought I would give a run down of my good yet boring life.

So I just finished almost all of the drawings for my new story. Its a story based on several different fairy tales. Its combines Red Riding Hood, Snow White, and Cinderella (it has a fairy godmother-ish lady in it). In the story, a blood mage named Kai (Red Riding Hood) is teamed with a wolf like man called Arwen (Big Bad Wolf) to find and destroy an evil queen and save the kingdom. Along their journey they meet Eirwen (Snow White) who is the step daughter of the evil queen, whom Eirwen thought she had killed years ago. There are epic bad guys and battles, I definitely think its my best. I am determined to write it out, its not like with other stories where I only had ideas for the beguinning, and after writing for a bit I lose interest, no, with this story I have the whole thing fleshed out. I'm making it my New Year's Resolution to finish it.

Art wise I've made a real break through, I've been doing other poses other than the standing straight forward ones, which are good for figuring out the characters looks and the costume but not great for action. I've found many photos of action poses online and have been drawing them, I try to draw poses from my head but its very difficult for some reason. I'm trying to draw and practice a lot so that when school starts I can impress the teachers and other students.

School wise, I don't start till the 31st which is great but I'm tired of waiting. I like the idea of online classes but doing certain things is annoying such as my financial aid. I've had so many problems with it, I will hopefully be getting a refund though which means I can buy a brand new laptop and art supplies. I need to email my advisor lady because I have some questions about the site, I cannot figure out my schedule at all, its so weird, I don't know if I have a class on a certain day or if I have one class a week and that I have all week to take that class. Other than that I'm fine with school.

Job wise, I'm still unemployed god dammit. I applied to seven different places last week and got not one call back. I would really like to work downtown, its easy to get too and a great area. I believe that I may go down there and ask the one book store if they have an application, if I worked at a bookstore I would probably jizz my pants.

Family wise, its insane. My mother is becoming crazier every day. Her undiagnosed bipolar disorder is getting worse. She is perfectly happy one minute then the next she's going insane over the fact that there is a smudge on the mirror, and I am in no way exaggerating. She doesn't care about any of us, only how the house looks, I hate having friends over because I must spend two days cleaning so the house is up to my mothers ridiculous standards and my friends can come over. Today when I woke up I said "Ooh I'm not feeling well" and she didn't even ask whats wrong she just started barking out orders for me to clean this and clean that. I hate being home with her on her days off, I love when she does to work because I do not have to deal with her, I love the woman but she needs help.

Hmmm, my love life is lacking, as usual. I'm talking to a couple guys, but idk what to do, one guy is cool but he lives in Butler which is a bit of a drive, plus I don't think he's interested anymore cause he's doesn't talk as much. Another guy is weird, he works late at night, which is fine cause I stay up late, but every time I text him he's like "Why are you still up? Staying up is unhealthy blah blah blah" if he doesn't want to talk why can't he say so ya know? HOWEVER the third guy is the best so far, he lives in West Virginia, but its an area about 30 minutes from Robinson so not too too far, he writes stories and is very creative, we talk every day almost all day. Its awesome. I asked my Tarot cards about my love life and they said I would find a relationship but I would have to work to keep it alive but it would be a good one! :D

So Just A Little Update About My Day :DDD
So first off I'm super happy because the one acrobat from the Cirque Du Soleil show I saw (Cirque Dreams Holidaze), Rocco Lapaire, who did the very first act, sent me a picture of his costume because I wanted to draw it and he said to send him a picture of it so he can see!!! That's soo cool, maybe we'll be friends, that'd be awesome, he's super sexy but sadly straight lol. But he's still super nice for sending me that picture. I also spent ALL DAY cleaning my room because it was a huge mess. I've been dying to clean it but haven't been able to because it was full of Christmas decoration boxes. We finally got the boxes out and now it looks awesome. I organized my awesome bookshelf and it looks beast!!! I also moved my bed and made it look all purty and fixed my little table thing. Then I took a beast shower and came downstairs to write this random post of random-ness.


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